When the rich wage war its the poor who die

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I get so amazingly paranoid sometimes i want to slap myself. but that hurts. i know he loves me because he tells me so and he is still here after all my crap, im not the easiest person to live with =D i wonder if ****** just says stuff to purposly make me mad, i wonder if she is a neglegtful mother just to irratate the hell out me. i wonder if i am crazy... there is a good chance of that though. it does run in the family =D

So i start school agian on the 25th ... less then a week away. and im looking forward to it, but that will pass, you know how you always look forward to the first day of school, and then it comes and goes and you pretty much want the year to be over? yeah thats how i work. Work, starts soon too. i got a job working as a one on one out here at one of the elementry schools, mom got a job in the same place .... pays 11.95 an hour, but only for three and half hours a day, which is ok seeing as how if i dont clean this place is a disaster. Loren is looking forward to being in school agian too.. and so i am i.... man 3 year olds these days know more then they ought too. this kid has a mouth to match mine, even rival it, in a talk back sorta way.

I try to make as much as i can seem intersting in my life, it gets to be hard though. i only live in boring old california... ill start posting more once school starts, makes things alot more exciting,..

My ear hurts ...

So does my head.
I know I whine alot. I go in tomorrow to get my eyes checked agian, the doctor told me last week that I had corneal edema, that my corneas are slightly hazy, so he prescribed me 3 different eye drops that I have been useing for the past week. it was really hard to keep up on them, every hour for one, three hours for another and then 4 times a day for the last one. Hopefully he tells me that the eye drops helped other wise he will have to refer me to a surgen because he thinks it might be retinal detachment.... super scary

I go back to school on the 25th taking class to get my teachers cert, and i also go re-cert for my EMT in september...

Im almost 21, i cant wait, because im such a big drinker :) Not really

So its been decided

Coty and I decided to change the date of our wedding to July 23rd 2009. gives us some more time to save some $$$

hope everyone is doing good..

My Family

So just as a kind of backround thing for some, Coty and i have been together now a year and half going on too in Febuary, which is also when we are gettin married =D He has two beautiful little girls, Alyssa who is two and Loren who is three, we are talking about starting our own, but not for while so dont worry.

I have had my license for a few years now, i remeber how much my uncle wanted me to get it.

I have my own apartment, and ill be 21 in a matter of weeks, aww im all grown up.. i also a my own little kitten, we found her and raised her by bottle feeding her, now she thinks she is a person.

Well more to come later, here are some pictures for you to enjoy

Just strating

Just decided to start this so some of my other family can know whats going on =D